Anas bin Malik narrated that the Messenger of Allah (SAW) said: Allah (SWT) has said, ‘O son of Adam! Verily, as long as you called upon Me and hoped in Me, I forgave you despite whatever may have occurred from you, and I do not mind. O son of Adam! Were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky, then you sought forgiveness from Me, I would forgive you, and I would not mind. O son of Adam! If you came to me with sins nearly as great as the Earth and then you met Me, not associating anything with Me, I would come to you with forgiveness nearly as great as it is’. (Jami’at Tirmidhi 3540. Book 48 Hadith 171)
Allah Akbar! Allah is indeed, Al-Ghaffur, Ar-Raheem. No matter what evil we may have done, so long as we do not commit shirk, Allah will forgive us as long as we seek repentance. We should seek sincere repentance with the intention to refrain from such acts completely. The beauty of the forgiveness of Allah is that it doesn’t come alone; it comes with blessings too. Now, who does that! This is to let us know how glad Allah is to have us back.
So, don’t be shy. Just take that step toward Him and you will find Him closer to you.